That’s a good idea. I want to start running again. Maybe that would be a goal. Like a half marathon or something??? Maybe a Bjj competition.
You're not alone in that aspect. Many people get tons of anxiety when it comes to competing, especially in combat sports. If you look at all of the greatest hockey players that fought on the regular they always said the same thing. They were never scared, but they always had anxiety. Bob Probert and Tony Twist said they tried to focus that anxiety into performance. Both of those gentleman (performance enhancing or not) said using that anxiety helped created the engagement as their way of decompressing/high. So instead of craving the substance, they craved the combat. For them it was something they could satiate on a nightly basis. If you could compete monthly/quarterly and use the anxiety as a tool to satiate that need to decompress instead of substance abuse, it might be fruitful to try. The concern there though is you start seeking to compete outside the lines so you need to keep that in check.I haven’t in several years. I get a lot of anxiety doing stuff like that.
Always talk to your doc first, some meds take weeks to months to taper off.Decided to quit a medicine I’ve been taking for three-four years that’s made me gain 25 pounds and zapped my energy. Didn’t think it through and didn’t talk to my doctor. I’m having some pretty significant symptoms (nausea, vomiting, dizziness, blurred vision) and it’s been a week. Hopefully it gets better. I tapered down, but only for a week. I’m such an impulsive bi-polar idiot. I still take 1 medicine. To late to turn back now.