Recovery Thread

Discussion in 'Off-Topic Discussion' started by Miz, Dec 25, 2014.

  1. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    Downloaded a free app called insight timer. It has meditations you can do. My doc suggested it. Thought it could be another tool in the shed.
     
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  2. Miz

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    Been writing down my goals for the next day at night. Then the next night I check off the things I did. As long as I check off that I didn’t drink then my day was a success.

    I’m really tired of being mediocre at best and a waste of space at worst. Been meditating, started running, playing brain games, and still reading. I’m almost 40. It’s time I really become my best me.
     
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  3. Kano

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    Miz, brother, friend
    You've taken the hardest step. You're on your way. Hang on it's going to be a wild ride.
     
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  4. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    I am kicking today’s ass. I’ve been spending more of my time meditating and playing brain games and of course reading. Easing back into working out as well. This writing down stuff at night and checking it the following night is awesome. I haven’t been viewing inappropriate sites and I feel so much better. This place is a sort of addiction for me so I’m going to try to make it more positive and limit time. I don’t have to read everything. PM me or tag me if you want me to see something.

    @Dimson i downloaded AA Website called my tool kit. It tells me to the second (edit: just to the hour) how long I’ve been sober. It also gives the daily reflection.

    Take care my friends!
     
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  5. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    My timer says 2 weeks or 342 hours.

    On one of the meditations, on the free insight timer app, the dude said to breathe in (focus on that) and smile while you breathe out. I’ll be damned if that doesn’t sound corny but it feels good. Hope every one is well. I’m trapped in with the family due to an ice storm. My youngest turns 1 on Sunday. They are so fun at this age. Everything is exciting to them.
     
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  6. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    I wonder what this means: last night as I lay awake in bed I wondered: “what the hell is George Thorogood up to? Is he still alive? Does he still make music?” Then this morning I’m 2 miles away from my AA meeting when I change the channel and “I drink alone” comes on. Like right as I turned the channel and ended right as I got to my destination. What was the cosmos telling me? Still sober and going to stay that way today.
    Had to cancel my son’s 1 year old birthday party tomorrow due to bad weather. He won’t care and he’ll get cake since we got it.
     
  7. Miz

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    My goodness has my anxiety been out of control. I am doing every thing I can to get it under control. Im taking care of myself, lightly working out, meditating, reading, taking some medications, everything. It’s been like this for a month. Now that I’m not teaching I thought this problem would not be here but it is. I think I’m on the downhill slope. Hopefully it relents soon. If you’ve never had a bad anxiety problem then you’re lucky. I’m not drinking. I know that is drinking is just a temporary solution to a long term problem. It’s funny cause yesterday I thought I was not nearly as anxiety ridden, but today it’s back. Taking a few moments to vent while my little guy naps. I’m a lucky guy and I have to remember to be grateful for the things I have. I beat myself up for past mistakes. I need to remember to live in the present.
    Going to take my little man to little swimmers in a few hours. Just had to vent. Hope all you guys are well.
     
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  8. Anchorpunch

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    Stay strong man. If you want to talk, I'm always here for you my friend. When I got out of my manic episode a couple of weeks ago I started feeling more anxiety. One of the tools from DBT that really, really helps me are "mindfulness" exercises. The idea is to really work to be present and then engage both your "thinking" mind and your "emotional" mind to a balanced mind. It sounds silly and I do a poor job of explaining it. But let me know if you want me to share things from my workbook.

    I'm also looking into a group for DBT, which might be interesting to you since you find posting in threads like this to be helpful. DBT involves no talking about your feelings (in fact, you're not allowed if they involve anything triggering to others), just focusing on the work of meditating, setting goals, and doing the exercises. I'm looking at it more like having a coach than a therapist and am really happy with it.

    For what it's worth to everyone: I spend more on medical at this point than I do on rent. Sometimes it scares me. But making that financial sacrifice has immensely changed my quality of life.
     
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  9. FrankieButNotEdgar

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    I don't know if I qualify for this thread but I quit sugar and carbs. Running straight Keto diet for the next 6 months at least to shed much needed weight. I had lost 70 pounds about 6 years ago and then gained it all back and then some. So I went back on TRT, gave up sugar and carbs and am running the Keto diet. Lost 8 pounds in 2 weeks and will hope to lose more in the coming months.

    Quitting sugar is a big deal for me because I love Pepsi, Sunkist, Mello Yellow and sweet tea. But I quit cold turkey.
     
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  10. Miz

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    @FrankieButNotEdgar everyone is welcome here at the fabulous Ali Baba hotel and casino. 1 million internet dollars if you know that reference.
     
  11. Dimson

    Dimson Your tears don't fall...

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    I didn't but I looked it up, lol.
     
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  12. Miz

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    31 days of no drinking. Coming off a month of bad anxiety and depression.

    Went on a vision quest today in the woods. I need to do this more. Even when the weather is shit. Sat next to a tree and meditated. It was funny how my two bird dogs would check in on me every so often. I first off need to just be me. Just comfortable with non drinking me. I also need to be like the wolf. Hunt and live outside in all elements.

    In my mind Mr. Myagi and myself carved people sized bonzi trees.
     
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  13. Dimson

    Dimson Your tears don't fall...

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    So next week will mark 2 years of being completely stone cold sober. No alcohol. Not even a sip. Can't say it has been easy, because it has really sucked at times but with all your help and with staying constantly busy, I have been able to fight any urges that have come my way.
     
  14. Miz

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    Good job Dim! I’m 35 days deep. Hope I can make it to where you are someday!
     
  15. Miz

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    Still sober. Was going to give this place up for lint (@Kano ), but I figure Facebook is enough. I need this place to decompress as well. Things are going well. I’m knee deep in poopy diapers from my 1 year old. Got a headache so I’m chilling while he is napping. I can’t start drinking again. I have to stay sober. This last month and a half of anxiety was terrible. I’m out of that woods and now I just have to stay on my program of wellness. I really want to be the best me possible and it starts with liking and being comfortable with myself. I will say that meditating, and you can do it in just two-five minutes is a life saver (I also pray but I know that’s not everyone’s thing). Waking up and starting my routine of prayer and meditation is huge. I’m also hitting up a meeting on Sturday’s and I read the daily AA reflection. I’d still say everyone would benefit from meditation. That’s enough randomness, excuse me I have a headache.
     
  16. Kano

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    I think the proper expression is "not tonight, I have a headache"
     
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  17. Ninjastix

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    So I had an employee, as of today, drink himself to death. I don't know where he lost the will to live but my guess it was somewhere between July and September last year. He's presently brain dead on life support and he'll be taken off that this evening by his parents. He drank till the point his liver had limited function, then he continued. This caused bleeding of the brain and at the point it was a wrap.

    Me, my employer, and his parents, we all tried to help. I resigned myself from it in January when it was absolutely clear to me he was lying to me about pretty much everything. It wasn't a surprising situation to me because I've lost 2 uncles this way as well. Both resigned to their fates both turned their backs on the people that cared about them.

    I have limited sympathy for people struggling with addiction(s) who refuse help but remain in people's lives. That's not a badge of honor, that's a personal limitation and prejudice.

    That being said I don't wish what this guy went through or put his family or friends through on anyone. If you have a reason to live then you have a reason to keep trying to battle your demons. I typically avoid this thread because I don't consider myself a helpful source on the subject of addiction, but I figured this story might help others looking for perspective. It was a wholly unnecessary situation. The help and support were there but the will was not.

    So long as you have the will to go on, I hope anyone on the path to recovery knows that help will find its way to you.
     
  18. Miz

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    Everyone is welcome here Ninja! I haven’t drank in 48 days. I have a lot to live for. Had my first real test last Sunday. Went bowling with my brother and some friends. A guy that doesn’t know me super well bought a bucket of beers and told me to dig in. I said no thanks and still had a great time. I can still have fun without drinking. Now I have to be on the lookout and keep my guard up. I’m only hitting one meeting a week, but I’m meditating and praying daily. I really like meditating and I think that could benefit anyone.

    Cheers to you guys. Hope everyone is well.
     
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    I sincerely appreciate the thoughtfulness of your post and the sentiments you expressed. It's a very sad thing, but your perspective here is incredibly meaningful and is something everyone should take to heart. Thank you.
     
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  20. Miz

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    It’s weird in that I have no desire to drink right now. Once I stop I’m good. I’ve made it 10 months before. It’s when I have that first drink. Then all bets are off. It’s could easily have just been three beers bowling on Sunday. But Monday I would have got a six pack. Tuesday I would have been mad that I needed more, so I’d get a 30 pack. By that weekend I would have hid a bottle and would be day drinking. I just can’t enjoy ah beer. It’s not alcohol, it’s me, and I have to remember that. I can’t enjoy a beer. It consumes me. I just have to tell myself everyday that I can’t drink for this one day. Everyday is just one day. I can enjoy life without drinking. It’s so much better when I don’t drink. I love getting buzzed. It’s the 12 plus beers after that that suck. It’s the puking every morning that sucks. I can’t enjoy a beer and I have to remember that. I’m not going to let it beat me.
     
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