Recovery Thread

Discussion in 'Off-Topic Discussion' started by Miz, Dec 25, 2014.

  1. Dimson

    Dimson Your tears don't fall...

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    Still sober. Sometimes I wish I could drink. I really do. But I know if I do, I won't stop. The goal is to die sober.
     
  2. disposableassassin

    disposableassassin PHASE 3 Site Donor

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    My goal is to die
     
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  3. Dimson

    Dimson Your tears don't fall...

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    Pretty sure you are going to achieve that goal!
     
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  4. disposableassassin

    disposableassassin PHASE 3 Site Donor

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    I feel that if I gave it my all I'd be pretty good at it.
     
  5. AnchorPunch

    AnchorPunch Well-Known Member Site Donor

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    Chewy with a tobacco aftertaste. 8/10, would eat again.
     
  6. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    I hope to become a vampire and never die. I’d let Tom Cruise bite my wrist.
     
  7. Qball1974

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    Later then sooner me hopes :)
     
  8. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    Day four of eating whole 30. It’s good because you can’t have booze. Weighed 192.4 on Monday and 187 today. I’d like to get down to 175. I have to start working out again. I just don’t have a great deal of motivation. I see my pdoc next week and I need to talk about medicine. Maybe we could cut back. Probably need to get my test checked. I’m now staying home with my 6 month old which is great. I was worried that when school started I would get depressed. It’s the first school year in twelve years that I haven’t been involved in. I’m feeling pretty good and even meditated some yesterday.

    Hope all you guys are well.
     
  9. AnchorPunch

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    Glad you're feeling well, my friend. I have to get back into it too, going to start by returning to weight training and a lot of flexibility work before I get into anything else.

    I'm taking today off for chores, use case work, etc. Tomorrow I"m back at it, so you should go in too.
     
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  10. TriangleSmoke

    TriangleSmoke Motherfucker of the Century Site Donor

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    It's been a bit of a struggle lately--just my usual overthinking things in both my professional and personal life, lots of self-loathing, etc. Still not using dope or coke, but the thought is always there. I hope everyone's doing well and staying strong.
     
  11. disposableassassin

    disposableassassin PHASE 3 Site Donor

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    My life is utter shit. I've done well to stay away from things so far. My depression is kicking back up pretty hard right though. It has been a struggle to maintain any kind of positive mindset.
     
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  12. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    I feel good. I’ve had my ups and downs with sobriety. Sober now and I feel good. I love not being hungover in the morning and being able to be the best father I can be. Now that I’m staying home with my youngest I have very little stress. If I could give one piece of advice it would be to find a good woman with a good job and be her man candy.

    Stay strong buddy.
    --- Post Added -- Aug 23, 2018, ---
    @TriangleSmoke you doing any jiu-jitsu? I’ve got to get back into it.
     
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  13. TriangleSmoke

    TriangleSmoke Motherfucker of the Century Site Donor

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    Yea I roll a few days a week but need to be in there every day. I'm up and in the weight room by 3:30am every morning during the week and try to get to at least 2 bjj classes a week and at least 1 open mat a week. I need to go to classes and open mats daily. I also don't get enough sleep so that makes training all the more difficult task.
     
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  14. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    How old are you? What do you do to get the motivation to lift every morning? I’m trying to get that motivation back. I used to have it. I’m getting older but I think changing my diet is helping. Road my bike and walked today but I just haven’t felt like “going hard”. I used to love to lift and push it. Might be my meds I take as well? I guess it’s a trade off.
     
  15. TriangleSmoke

    TriangleSmoke Motherfucker of the Century Site Donor

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    I'll be 32 in November.

    The weightlifting and exercise beyond bjj started because I just wanted to look better. I then started feeling much better and noticing significant gains which is always exciting because it's gives you that slight sense of accomplishment. Now I feel anxious if I go more than 2 consecutive days without a workout.
     
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  16. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    Why the self-loathing if you don’t mind me asking? I always worry about what I’m not doing and get on myself with things like parenting and what not. I always have to remember I’m doing pretty good. Hell more than most. I can do better and I can strive for it but as of this second I’m doing ok. That’s what I tell myself when I remember to.
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    Not sure if I mentioned this but I’m going to write a book. A fiction book. I actually started already. There I said it. It might be the worst book and story ever but it will be mine. I’m doing it.
     
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  17. TriangleSmoke

    TriangleSmoke Motherfucker of the Century Site Donor

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    It's hard to say? I suppose it's just an inherent emotional instability issue. People say I'm my own worst critic. Whether it's work, bjj, relationships--I always beat myself up over things. My sales manager always tells me to chill the fuck out and that I'm a top performer and to stop sweating bullshit, but I'm somewhat of a perfectionist and get pretty down on myself when things don't necessarily go according to plan. I think it's an emotional/ego issue. That's one reason why I find LSD so productive for me personally because LSD shatters my ego and reminds me of how insignificant I and my perceived "problems" are in the grand scheme of the multiverse.
     
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  18. Miz

    Miz mortality, ka, and the Tower

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    I admire your ability to do lsd. It’s been close to twenty years since I was tripping. I didn’t do it a lot but I had some fun and scary times. I’m not sure how I’d function if I took lsd now. You do dmt also, right? I’m not sure I’m brave enough for that.

    Don’t beat yourself up. You’re the best you there is.
     
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  19. TriangleSmoke

    TriangleSmoke Motherfucker of the Century Site Donor

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    LSD is sacrament. LSD under the right circumstances in the proper setting can be very profound.

    I haven't used any DMT in a while. I went deep my last time and didn't necessarily get the answers I was looking for, but I definitely got answers and haven't felt the need to go down that rabbit hole again. I'm not saying I won't use it again. I have plenty and presumably will use it again when the time is right, but I haven't feel the inclination to use it since my last trip.

    And thanks for the kind words.
     
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  20. Poindexter

    Poindexter Reputation: ∞ Staff Member

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    Do you do it around other people? How much do you consume?
     

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